Taylor Swift says she constantly worries about being a self-centred person who no one will like and thus she will end up alone – is this what drives her to jump from relationship to relationship? The singer reveals that she hates the thought of ending up all by herself and looking back on her life with sadness when she is older. She doesn’t want to make the kind of mistakes that will push away the people she loves and hopes she will always have people around her:
‘What I worry about is that I never want to end up kind of a self-centred, vain human being. My fears circle around me making the wrong choices and messing this up for myself. I don’t wanna end up being awful and intolerable. Alone. Laying in a marble bathtub by myself, like sad, with a glass of wine just complaining that my life ended up alone because I pushed everyone away because I thought I was too good to hang out with anybody. The typical Hollywood sad cliché of the poor lonely starlet with no one because she put up all these walls and didn’t trust anyone. That’s my fear. And that’s why I live my life the way I live my life because I’d so much rather feel everything than end up like that.’
Opening up on the idea of one day starting a family, Taylor reveals that she doesn’t really have a grand plan for her life because she knows that planning things like that doesn’t really work. She wants to see how her life pans out and thinks things will come together for her eventually in a way that makes sense:
‘I think so but I’m not sure. Like, I don’t even have a master plan. I’ve thought that I did have a dream scenario before but it turns out that I change my mind and that essentially in your 20s all the puzzle pieces of your life are thrown up in the air and they just fall into whatever place and I think that’s healthy.’
