Demi Lovato has opened up on one of the most painful time in her life – when she used to cut herself. Demi struggled with several problems, including an eating disorder and she has revealed that she would cut herself when she felt her worst and she didn’t have any fear of what might happen to her because she was in such a dark place – it would distract her from everything else going on:
“There were times I felt so anxious, almost like I was crawling out of my skin — that if I didn’t do something physical to match the way I felt inside, I would explode. I cut myself to take my mind off that. I just didn’t care what happened. I had no fear.”
Now Demi is taking things slowly, but is returning to life as normal and has taken on a role as judge on X-Factor USA. She says the healing process is slow but she makes time for herself and tries to work through her problems whenever they arise now:
“I make time for myself and meditate. I’ve spent the past two years getting over an eating disorder and issues like self-harming and bipolar disorder. I have to work on this stuff every day. I’m reminded of that whenever I eat or feel down.”
Demi comments that her perception of beauty has changed – before she used to feel her most beautiful when she was on the red carpet in full makeup, hair and designer clothes. These days, she feels most relaxed with her look when she can take off her makeup and be herself:
“I used to feel my most beautiful when I was on the red carpet or at events or something where I’m all dolled up. Now I feel like the moment when I feel most beautiful is when I’m able to hang out with a guy without my makeup on or lay on the beach with no makeup on and not even worrying about what my hair or what I look like before I fall asleep. When I’m confident enough to show myself without makeup on, that’s when I feel my most confident.”
